((Independent LOTR RP blog for Rumil. I track the tag rumiloflothlorien. Artwork by Nyangsam))
//This thread hurts me. And Rumil. LINDIR IS LOSING OROPHIN AND RUMIL IS LOSING BOTH HIS BROTHERS AND NONE OF IT IS OKAY. EVERYTHING HURTS.
I am half cackling into the night and half ugly sobbing but in either case I have to go take care of rampant puppies who want to play in the park so you’ll have a bit of time to recover xD
OH JUST FYI OROPHIN WILL BE CRYING LIKE A CHILD RIGHT BEFORE THE BATTLE.
He’s gonna be just like. So fucking scared and he’s gonna feel so alone and he doesn’t wanna die and lkdfjsdf. And he’s just gonna curl up in a corner and try to convince himself that it’ll be okay but it’s not gonna be okay and he knows it and he can’t talk to Haldir either because that’s the big brother he’s always tried to impress and oh my God he’s just trying to find the sense in it all because he can’t run either but poor Rúmil is going to be so alone and Lindir’s going to cry and WHY IS HE EVEN HERE BUT THEN HE JUST TRIES TO KEEP HIMSELF TOGETHER BY THINKING THAT IF HE DOESN’T GET UP AND FIGHT THERE WILL BE NO MORE RIVENDELL AND NO MORE LOTHLÓRIEN AND THEY’RE BOTH GONNA DIE AND HE’S JUST GONNA FACE THE BLADES AND JUST TRY TO BE GLAD THAT HE’S DYING WITH HALDIR AT LEAST
AND
I
JUST
YOU HAVE FUN WITH THE GODDAMN PUPPIES I’M GONNA CHOKE LAUGHING AND CRYING AT THE PAIN I FEEL
WHY WAS I GIVEN THESE EMOTIONS.
LINDIR WILL BE SO SAD.
RUMIL WILL BE DEVESTATED BECAUSE HE’LL BE ALL ALONE AND HE’LL BE THE ONLY ONE LEFT AND HE’LL TRULY BE AN ORPHAN THEN BECAUSE HIS WHOLE FAMILY WILL BE DEAD AND HE WON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO OR WHERE TO TURN.
NO THIS HURTS AND IT’S NOT OKAY.
